MY best of 2009

MY Best for 2009..

my best movie.. Confessions of a Shopaholic (so?it's my list.. ;))
my best song…The Climb Miley Cyrus.
my best concert…MTV World Stage.
my best TV show..still One Tree Hill, Gossip Girl, Lipstick Jungle
my best artists of the year.. Lady Gaga.. ;)
my best moment.. we got back together
my best magazine..STYLE Mag
my best gift.. my birthday.
my worst moments... losing my granddad.


this list came a month later...
I've been busy.Thanks for making my year a worth full one...

It's surprising how much memory is built around things unnoticed at the time. ~Barbara Kingsolver, Animal Dreams

13th September ~ He left us

*we love u tata.

Well... after a while of neglecting towards my number one passion in life, let me start with a very sad story that really broke my heart.
2 months back my granddad, who I always address him as Tata, was admitted in hospital after feeling pain in few places. At first he was taken to GH and was admitted there for few days.

At that point, who would have thought it was this serious. After he was brought back from GH Tata was still complaining about his legs and to nobody's guess, later in the day he became really weak and his body system can't react as no foods and drinks can be taken in and out.

They took him to Assunta the next morning when they realize things is getting worst. Few hours after being hospitalized tata manage to recover a little.... but Doctor wasn't giving any hope when they told his children’s that it can be anytime for him to leave us. That is the worst news I ever heard this year.

I hope those words was just words.

For the first two days Tata was still able to talk and recognize us, but as day pass he became weaker, still he never forget who we were. I cried every night, thinking I’m going to loose him even though he is no longer the person he use to be.

After a week in Assunta my dad and the rest of his sibling decided to bring him back home. I remembered there was one day in the hospital one of the nurses was telling us bout the check up. She told us that his heart is good today. Well you don't just need heart, u need all.

Tata's condition was not good. At home he was in the care of house nurse 24-7 and the rest of the family. He survived another 7 days until one fine Sunday morning. At 3.30 am we rush to my aunt's place only to be told that he left in peace.

It is one of my greatest lost. My man. The man who always cracks a joke every time I’m with him, always feeds me and never he have scolded or beat me... as the eldest granddaughter I don't know if I was his favorite grandchild but I do know that he have always love me throughout his life.
I know I really miss you because Deepavali is not the same without you. I love you so much and I'm really sorry you did not have the chance to see me in my wedding dress. I don't know how many tears come running down my cheeks while writing this... rest in peace tata. Thanks for watching up on us from a different place.

P/s= I’m sorry if this post is like a primary student essay. It’s the voice of my inner child.

A man does not die of love or his liver or even of old age; he dies of being a man. ~Percival Arland Ussher

A grandfather is someone with silver in his hair and gold in his heart. ~Author Unknown

~US~

Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly. ~Rose Franken

When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. ~Nora Ephron, When Harry Met Sally

Happy Mother's Day Mummy!

me love mummy!

hope you like the pressie and my Spaghetti... ;)

Some mothers are kissing mothers and some are scolding mothers, but it is love just the same, and most mothers kiss and scold together. ~Pearl S. Buck

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side...

This is for my motivation, it's not just about my love life it's about all...

Sharing this with everyone for a good words to reach you dreams..

The Climb (Miley Cyrus)

Can almost see it

That dream I’m dreaming but

There’s a voice inside my head sayin,

You’ll never reach it,

Every step I’m taking,

every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

but I got to keep trying

Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s The Climb

The struggles I’m facing,

the chances I’m taking

Sometimes they knock me down

but No I’m not breaking

I may not know it

but these are the moments that

I’m going to remember most yeah,

Just got to keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes you going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes you going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It’s all about, it’s all about The climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith

It is easier to go down a hill than up, but the view is best from the top. ~Arnold Bennett

Know your limits, but never stop trying to exceed them. ~Author Unknown

After days of hard time... WE COMPROMISE...

After 8 days and 7 nights of letting go... we met, we talk and we compromise on some things that have come in between us... He said "Ok, sayang I won't let you go..". I was afraid it was just for the sake of sympathy till I realize yes he still love me. All those stuff happened because of anger for my misbehave. Anger is the thing that lead us to this. Bee thanks for coming back... It was a black week for me. You made me smile back. Thanks because at one point you still think that we can work things out. I love You dear...

To all my friends and family who were there...

-Kecik

-Mira

-Ely

-Ira

-Ate Thiba

-Aizam

-Avril

-Mazni

-Sarah Ann

-Adila

-Ezrin

-Raqiib

-Fadzly&Azrin

-Kak Farah

-Husni

-Michelle

-Farhana

Thanks for being there, cheering me up, listening to me and saying those wise words and telling me to be strong and words for me to move on...and some even made me believe that he will come back...
and he did came back... and I don't have to wait that long for him. Thanks Dear and thanks friends..to who ever that i miss out your name..you should know what you say or do, did mean something to me...

Even when I cried you guys did not shish me out... and please stop making fun of me now!!! =P

Faith makes things possible, not easy. ~Author Unknown

Anything you lose automatically doubles in value. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

I STILL BELIEVE....

Some things have to be believed to be seen. ~Ralph Hodgson, The Skylark and Other Poems

we will be...